Here Goes A Lot Of Things

     Two years is not that long. I will be back soon, my tiger.

     Life was terrible a week and a half ago. I must admit that this so-called adventure has caused me so much pain and heartache. I will elaborate no more of what happened and honestly, incidents like that should not be dragged to the future, rather be buried in the past. Lesson learned and this is definitely one for the books.

     God is so thoughtful that at this time in my life, He gave me that one person who will stand up strong no matter how chaotic and harsh reality is. To tell everyone the truth, this new chapter in my life has made me ride the roller-coaster without a seatbelt strap on. And behind every scream and fright, that person relentlessly made me smile and feel secured. For someone who makes sure I do not just know that he loves me, but also makes me realize that life is full of hope, being 1,501 miles away from each other is not a drawback. Thank you for being an inspiration and being the best man in my life. Love really knows no boundaries.

      The storm is finally over and the cloud of tears has finally receded. My prayers have been answered and all is well.

  FAITH and PATIENCE.

Better, I Guess?

     As far as my "supposedly" adventurous life is concern, I do not want to sulk in bed nor lock myself in the room for what happened. Life is so beautiful out here and there is yet to explore. I went to Jem Mall yesterday to sweep things off my mind and find it rather entertaining. It is not the usual mall I see around Manila, but this makes me want to come back. It may be small; yet, inside is filled with awesome boutiques. To name the familiar ones, they have Marks and Spencer, H&M, Victoria's Secret, and the like. I went to a book shop named Books Kinokuniya that made me want to scream, "Yes! Finally!"And of course, it broke my heart when I could not spend a single cent at H&M's midyear sale. However, I spotted a local cosmetics store called Sephora. They sell the "real deal" right here. Will I come back? Oh, without a doubt! You may find it shallow and pedantic, but it made my day, I suppose.

Next Chapter Please

   Even a happy biking Sunday does not hold a candle to the uncertainties in my life right now.

   I came out here thinking everything is all ironed out. I was wrong. I should not have taken the word for it. I thought when I fly here I just have to finalize things and work on my Singapore pass and yet, things did not turn out as I have imagined it to be. Yesterday was probably one of the most heartbreaking moments in my life.

   I went to the preschool thinking everything was secured and certain. I was REALLY wrong.

   I have never felt so devastated in my life. Of all the places, why in a country that is 1,500+ miles away from home? I feel like everything that I have prayed and hoped for is some sort of mistake. Did I misunderstand everything? Was I too confident that I missed out details about my job application? I do not think so. It was cleared out to me that I was hired and for the last step, I just needed to pass some documents.

   Friday or Saturday. They said that the result of my application status will come out in either of those days. I cannot take the anxiety and pain any longer. But yeah, all I can do is wait. I do not mean to sound like I am being negative in this exciting chapter of my life; however, this is becoming more bizarre as it is. I am already thinking of going back home. I really am.

   Probably, if Marti is not emotionally supporting me, I will just curl into a ball and cry all day. Thank you for always keeping me together and standing strong not just for me, but for the both of us. I love how you always put a smile on my face even when tears are rolling down my cheeks. I cannot thank you enough for always reminding how strong and loving person I am. I love you very much.

   3 more days. 3 agonizing days.

   Keeping my head up and keeping the heart strong.

Welcome To Singapore Lah!

So finally, here I am in this fine City Of Lion.

Honestly, I already feel homesick and lonely.
Basically, for the past 2 days (and counting), awful things keep bugging me out.

1) I stayed for 4 hours or so in the airport. Not that I am complaining, but sleeping while sitting is not as comfortable and heavenly as sleeping in a bed.

2) I was so hungry and could not afford the food in the airport since I am on a tight budget.

3) I must have forgotten I will be carrying a LOT and a little girl like me can only carry so much. I rode the MRT and bus instead of riding the taxi. Ha! I saved $38 because of that.

4) Since, I did not exactly know where my flat was, I went up and down the stairs of my building while carrying my luggage, duffel bag, back pack, shoulder bag, and canvas bag. Apparently, there are different staircases for every flat number.

5) When I finally found my flat, no one was home. I could not help but cry outside. I did not have internet access to contact my landlady nor did I have a Singapore number to call.

I think it took the landlady half an hour to arrive. Thank God. I rushed inside the room and cried for a while. I just felt really exhausted, sleepy, and lost. I slept the day off and was glad to talk to my worried boyfriend when I woke up. I have to rest for tomorrow is the big day!

Lesson learned: Bring ONLY what is necessary and never ever be stingy if it is for your own convenience.

Despedida

They say that when someone leaves, it is always hardest for the ones left behind. But, honestly, it hurts just as much to the ones moving on.

Moving to a different country was never part of my plan. I would never risk the good life in Manila for an uncertain one in Singapore, but stability and experience as a teacher here in our country is pretty much nowhere to be found. And so, I decided to try my luck in this "fine" city. Let's see how things will roll for me in this island.

I spent my last weekend with close friends and actually, this is what I have hoped for as a despedida. My fabulous girls have set a dinner on a Friday night, my dance family, Skittlez, whom now I call dance babies spent their Saturday night jamming (food and dance! :D) with me, Marti's awesome ninja buddies came in for a late-night dinner, my former student & true-blue friends made Monday a stress-free one, and of course, my bestest dancer buddies did not let me go without saying good-bye.

And yes, I have shared EVERY single, joyful moment with my other half, Marti.
I love you very much, my tiger.

 I am truly blessed and I have never felt so much love until this day.

Thank you, guys. I will miss each and every one of you.