New Year's Eve

"It only happens once a year.

It's a time when hopeless can be romantic

and a resolution can be a revelation.

And when one night can change everything..."

- New Year's Eve, 2011

A year is about to end once again
and this time,
I know I am about to breeze through it
with a big smile in my face and my heart. :)


I just want to thank everyone for a wonderful year.
Things at the start of the year
 were not as great as what is happening now and yet,
with all those challenges and good times,
here I am,
stronger and wiser.

"All's well that ends well," as what they say.


Reading my 2011 Coffee Bean Journal brought me into tears.
A lot of things REALLY did happened to me in 2011.
Wonderful and heartbreaking ones...
As fast as the year may seem, yes, countless things have happened.
The last day of the year is actually one of the best days for me. :)


Here are the unforgettable memories of 2011:


January:

February:

March:





April:

May:

 

June:


 

 

July:

August:

semptember:

October:






November:

 

December:

And I know I am going to get jiggy with the year 2012
with all of you AGAIN!


"It's suspended there to remind us before
we pop the champagne and
celebrate the New Year,
to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by.
To remember both out triumphs
and out missteps- our promises made and broken.
The times we opened ourselves down, for fear of getting hurt.
Because that's what New Year's all about:
getting another chance.
A chance to FORGIVE, to do BETTER, to do MORE,
to give GIVE, and to LOVE more.
And stop worrying about 'what if' and start embracing 'what would be.'
When the ball drops at midnight -and it will drop-
let's remember to be nice to each other,
kind to each other, and not just tonight,
but all year long."

4:26am

They say that the sky is the limit,

but then come to think of it,

if you REALLY want something,

there shouldn't be any limit.

"Do What You Want"

- Forever 21 T-shirt design

2011 is the toughest year for me for

it has broken me into gazillion pieces and

it taught me how to hold on and stand up again.

Unexpected and hurtful things went my way and yet,

I came out strong.

And, I am glad that the storm has finally stopped. :)

A lot of people are amazed on how I managed to

still be selfless after everything.

Why?

Because there is this one person

who stood by my side through out the obstacles.

This one person whom I never expected

to exist right before my eyes.

Taking revenge and hurting people

are the last two things I would do.

This is according to that one person

who believed and still believes the good in me.

And now,

I could not comprehend and believe

that I am about to spend the remaining days of my 2011 with

that one person.

As I welcome the year 2012,

I know with or without this extraordinary feeling,

we will still be here for each other.

Always and all ways.

This is, by far, the best feeling EVER.

Everything is just so good and unbelievable.

A dose of a 2-year heartache

is just what I needed

to appreciate the beauty of life and people.

And for the win,

this is the best Christmas gift this year. :)

So..

To cut the excitement and lessen the bemusement,

this is my fairy tale.

A couple of months ago,

I was in a pool of deep shit when I finally stood up for myself
and ended a vicious cycle..

As sacrilegious as I was,

my last resort was to pray for the pain to go away.
I begged but never really prayed.

I have tried a lot of rituals and all those paraphernalia

just to make a wish and yet,

nothing ever worked.

Last month,

as I roll myself into the deep shit even more,

I have accepted my defeat and used my last resort.

I went to Baclaran Church with Karelle, bought a rosary,

and cried myself out.

Mixed emotions rushed over me.

After that day,

things have never felt so good-

of course, with the help of my co-teachers also.

I learned to appreciate my life again and

accepted that rejection is just a phase of maturity.

A week after,

a big surprise stumbled upon my door.

2 years of tight closeness as friends

and there you were,

confessed about how much you want to take care of me-

not as a "brother" nor a friend. :)

I gave you the chance and surprisingly,

you are VERY consistent and determined.

You may be islands away from me,

but you already know how thankful I am to have you-

not just as a friend but as a special someone, too.

You really are a blessing to me. :)

Thank you for all the effort and surprises.

*One of the surprises before he left.

You really want to make me fat, huh? :P

I can hardly wait for January to come and 

spend time with you again.

We need to go back to Baclaran Church and

give back what God has given us- love and joy.

Thank you so much for patiently waiting for me.

Take good care of my rosary, okay? :)

This may take quite some time,

but I know you will be there when I am ready.

When I lost hope,

you were THERE to remind me.

This is the start.

My Grown Up Christmas List

Christmas Day.

A day filled with smiles and love.

A special day I realized friends and family are here to stay.

Friends are there to LOVE..

Family is there to embrace and care for me..

My wish finally came true.

I am MORE THAN happy 

than what I have wished and hoped for.

Tears are rolling down my cheeks as I write this blog post.

I am, after a long time, VERY happy.

Every thorn in my chest was worth it.

Thank You for making me a stronger person

and for holding my hand when I was about to give up.

I have yet to visit Your Holy house, but

I will go there once that "special gift" comes home.

We have so many things to thank for.

I, for one, have so many things to tell You.

Weeks before Baby Jesus was born,

I was thinking of presents that I would love to receive.

A list came up my mind- a long one. Haha!

And then, I realized all I want for Christmas is to be complete and happy.

God is so selfless.

He gave me MORE than what I actually believed to be is perfect.

- A successful and meaningful Christmas party in the preschool 

with my loving co-teachers

- Inspired by the beach wedding of Ren and Lyle. I love you, TEAMFAB!

- Dance training with ONE of the greatest dancers in the Philippines

- Bonding with my BFF. 12 years of friendship! Woot!

- A special someone whom I never expected to appreciate me like this.

and lastly...

- I learned to love myself even more :)

I know for some this may be irrelevant,

but believe me, it took me 2 years to finally realize the good in life.

Thank you, dear friends, for EVERYTHING.
There are SO many wonderful things around us.
We just have to learn how to embrace it.  

Have a blessed Christmas!