Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Once Again

And you came back..
You were just in time. :)
When you gave up on us,
I was ready to forget about everything.

Let's make this second chance work.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

This Boy She Loves

All she ever wanted was to be happy and yet, 
some sort of unlucky charm is blocking the way- 
happiness does not want to share its magic.

This boy was one of the best people in her life. 
He confessed his admiration for her and 
she fell in love with him.

But...
He bruised her heart.

They have gone through all the drama-rama of life and
time have tested their friendship really well. 
She, at first, 
did not know what to do nor how to react on such things. 
She never wanted to stepped on people nor risk the friendship. 
The fact that she was NOT ready 
for any serious relationship gave them the anxious feeling and 
made them taste the bittersweet of crossing the line.

He promised to never let her down nor let her go.
 He rekindled the lost fire inside her and 
brought back the smile on her face
 through all the EFFORT and LOVE he had shown. 
PROMISES and SECURITY- 
those things that she tried to hold on to.

He went back to his hometown with 
a little bit of hope that things will work perfectly fine. 
It did, actually.
 He gave her the assurance that 
she was looking for and
 she trusted him more than he will ever know.

She went away to find what she really wanted and
 went back home with definite desires.
 Things did not go on how she perceived them to be. 
He is suffering from "mid-life" crisis and has changed his plans. 
She is NOT included in them anymore.

And now...
She is hurt and devastated with the things happening 
for she could not comprehend and believe 
that what she has been holding on to is gone. 
All she could ask is "Why now?" 
All she could ever do is ponder upon herself and 
understand the circumstances. 
She could never hate him for all his decisions; 
not even hate him for pushing her away. 
All she wants now is a lucid and concise explanation
 on how and why things happened and are happening-
that's the least he could do for her.

She knows she does not deserve any of these things. 
Everything that is happening is just too soon for her; 
too soon to feel the past again.

All she could ever do now is be hopeful and optimistic. 
Things will be better, aren't they? 
This is just one of those times where you learn and
 be grateful things happened for whatever reason it may be.

And yes, she will not deny it.
She loves this boy with ALL her heart.
She will just be THERE for him.
Always. All ways.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Word Vomit

"RAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRR."

Just when I thought things are falling in its place,
everything slipped down the dump.

Why do I feel so gloomy about everything?
Is it because I am ready to give my all and to take 
 all the risks/circumstances?
Or...
Is it because I am used to the attention given to me
and now, everything just disappeared in a snap?

I just want to climb up a mountain and
shout till I have no voice-
that's how desperately I want the bad feeling to go away. 
That's how exhausted I am to be in the same situation twice.
Don't I deserve to be loved and to be happy?
Am I not worth taking care of?
Is it too much to ask to just stay beside me and never let me go?

WORD VOMIT: TOO PAINFUL. 

Sunday, January 15, 2012

The Not-So-Big-Surprise

The best material gifts I have received in my life.
Everything is there- make-up, gadget, and bag.
Thank you so much, Momma, for all these AWESOME gifts! :)

Like what I have said last time...
I love you and Papa. 
So much.

*Estee Lauder make-up 

*iPad2

*Louis Vuitton Damier Ebene Neverfull MM