Oh June!

"So how are we to know that it just isn't so?

That we just have to let each other go?"

- Set You Free by Side A

*FYI, that song applies to all,

not just for relationships. :)

The calendar has not reached the 30th of June

and yet, I feel like skipping to July or August.

I find June the toughest month of all.

6 more months till the year ends and I feel like

I have been at the edge of the cliff a lot of times this month.

How sad and frightful.

Sometimes I cannot help myself and ask God,

"Why me? I'm too hurt and tired already."

Giving up and losing hope crossed my mind a lot of times.

And yet, a little spark inside me keeps telling me

not to stop fighting;

to have a little faith and to believe in my strength.

I just want this phase to end.

For this cycle to end, I have to change.

It all began with my decisions and principles in life.

And to let go of the days that have gone by,

I planned and set goals for the future.

Anything or anyone who would cut me to the quick

or will cause a depletion in my life

will be shrugged off.

I just think it would be a waste of space

in my travelling bag.

And as I ride my plane going to an unknown destination,

I want to thank those people who taught me

how to be strong and brave.

I now know what I want and who I am.

If not for all those life lessons,

I could have easily given up and

not fight the unbearable pain away.

On a good note,

I am more than glad to know I found my light.

I cannot hide the fact and anticipation

that I am one step closer to my goals and yes,

meeting "the ONE".

No pressure.

No rush.

I am more than willing to wait for the

day the flowers will bloom for me. :)