Oh.

"I can’t think of a single reason why I should want this,

but I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit.

You make it hard on purpose.

There comes a moment when

it’s more than just a game,

and you either take that step forward or

turn around and walk away.

I could quit but here’s the thing,

I love the playing field.”

- Grey's Anatomy

28th of June

Random conversations with the Prep Bears :3

Me: Is that a rhinoceros?

M (one of the twins): Triceratops!

Teacher, you keep forgetting!

*We had an argument about the toy- if it

is a rhinoceros or triceratops. :))*

-o-

Me: So, N, how was your day yesterday?

N: Good.

Me: That's nice! What did you do yesterday?

Did you go out or stayed at home and played with friends?

N: I can't remember. *smiled sheeply*

-o-

S: I love you, teacher! *hugged me and kissed my arm*

Me: I love you too, S! *kilig*

-o-

E: I'm from Australia and India!

N: I'm from Australia, too!

Me: N, which city are you from?

N: Umm.. Australia. *answers confidently*

Me: Which city, N? Melbourne? Sydney?

N: Australia.

-o-

Me: Good bye, M and A! *waving at the twins*

Twins: Good bye, Teacher Pretzel!

*they said it at the same time with big smiles on their faces*

I don't know why they call me that. Haha!

Maybe because the first day of school,

we had pretzels for our snack.

We can talk about

dolphins, dinosaurs, big bad wolf,

Disneyland, princesses, and everything else

all day if we want to because I will not get tired of it.

I just feel VERY happy whenever I'm with them!

I love them kids even if

it is just the start of the school year. :)

Message Sent

Again and Again

Oh June, why are you being like this to me?

Issue-tissue again. T_T

Can everything just be normal and happy AGAIN?

Please naman.

This week has totally put me

into different doors of emotions.

It was very tricky and confusing.

It rushes me to heaven and hell in a matter of seconds.

It REALLY does.

* Start of SY 11-12 at Creative Play Corner

June 21

Last Tuesday, work starts again.

We were actually earlier than the actual opening of the school

because

1. New teachers need to get ready and

be prepared with the materials and schedule.

2. We need to clean and decorate our classroom.

MY classroom. :3

3. We need to make new instructional materials.

I am so excited even if I'll be handling the Prep Bears instead

of the Panda Bears.

This is it! :)

* Good times with TeamFab

June 24

It just makes my heart VERY glad to see and

spend time with these people.

Happy Graduation to our very own, Monica!

We had dinner at TGIFridays, BGC The Fort to celebrate

Monica's graduation the next day.

Stormy night with the girls + bf & hubby:

* KrumPinoy 4th Anniversary

June 24

Nothing can stop us- not even the typhoon Falcon.

Celebrated the anniversary at Patio Jose, Quezon City.

A lot weren't able to come. though. :(

My gosh, it's been a long time.

I can still remember the time I was not a krumper yet

and I am so inspired by this fam.

And now, I am a part of them already.

Thank you so much, Big Pat and kapatids! :)

Happy Anniversary to us!

* House of Insults

I'm surprised they stopped from bombarding me

with harsh and heart-slashing words.

Are they running out of words to say or

they realized that it is not working anymore?

I have no more tears to shed nor a heart to

feel the pain.

* U

I found my inner-peace when you answered all

the questions that has been bugging

me for a VERY long time.

Things may have been mind-boggling for so many months,

but at least now I know what your thoughts are.

I do not know how to react

towards everything, though.

I just feel more scared and confused now

because I do not know what your real intentions are.

With all those kisses and hugs,

are you telling me you want me back?

Do you need me because you still love me?

Or you're saying you need me because

I fill in spaces in your heart?

I'm guessing that being there for you always makes

you confident enough to come back

whenever you want to and

just set me aside when you don't need me anymore.

But, there's something inside me that tells me

our love for each other never died to begin with

that's why we're still like this to each other.

Which is which?

I just realized that things happen

when you least expect them.

I was so busy this week because of work

and yet, simple pleasure and heartache

could affect me like this.

I promise, starting today,

I will be more focused and determined.

I have goals to achieve

and things to work on.

I can do this. :)

Woot!

Decisions. Decisions.

I have to decide soon.

After tomorrow, I must have the answer. :|

I'm excited yet pressured.

I really hope this is it for me.

Highlight of the Month

ID 10741658

Bachelor of Science, major in Early Childhood Education

One of the BEST performances ever.

Where love, emotions, professionalism, technicality, and passion

were mixed in one bottle.

I am very proud to represent

La Salle Dance Company Contemporary,

as an alumna,

in the Centennial Celebration of La Salle!

*First 2 photos are from Deej Cruz

Last photo by Iris Quintana

Oh June!

"So how are we to know that it just isn't so?

That we just have to let each other go?"

- Set You Free by Side A

*FYI, that song applies to all,

not just for relationships. :)

The calendar has not reached the 30th of June

and yet, I feel like skipping to July or August.

I find June the toughest month of all.

6 more months till the year ends and I feel like

I have been at the edge of the cliff a lot of times this month.

How sad and frightful.

Sometimes I cannot help myself and ask God,

"Why me? I'm too hurt and tired already."

Giving up and losing hope crossed my mind a lot of times.

And yet, a little spark inside me keeps telling me

not to stop fighting;

to have a little faith and to believe in my strength.

I just want this phase to end.

For this cycle to end, I have to change.

It all began with my decisions and principles in life.

And to let go of the days that have gone by,

I planned and set goals for the future.

Anything or anyone who would cut me to the quick

or will cause a depletion in my life

will be shrugged off.

I just think it would be a waste of space

in my travelling bag.

And as I ride my plane going to an unknown destination,

I want to thank those people who taught me

how to be strong and brave.

I now know what I want and who I am.

If not for all those life lessons,

I could have easily given up and

not fight the unbearable pain away.

On a good note,

I am more than glad to know I found my light.

I cannot hide the fact and anticipation

that I am one step closer to my goals and yes,

meeting "the ONE".

No pressure.

No rush.

I am more than willing to wait for the

day the flowers will bloom for me. :)

Melani and Marko at SYTYCD Season 8

WOW.

Will you look at those legs? =O

I love the concept.

THEY ARE SO GOOD.

Enough said.

Cheers to 100 Years of Faith, Zeal, and Service!

I'm SO excited for this!

This is yet another great performance with the

La Salle Dance Company.

After a year and a half of absence in the company,

I am back again- only this time as an alumna.

So proud and happy to be able to represent LSDC again! :)

EVERYONE IS INVITED to celebrate with us and

be part of the history's BIGGEST and GREENEST party ever!

Just enter the campus of

De La Salle University-Manila today June 16

and experience the animo spirit of Lasallians!

Do not forget to wear green! :)

Dance and band concert starts at 5pm Amphitheater

Isang Daan will be at Teresa Yuchengco Building Auditorium 7pm

and the much awaited Pyromusical 10pm

See you there! :)

Happy Birthday, Big Pat!

Maligayang kaarawan sa aming ama sa KrumPinoy

na si Big Pat aka Wolf!!! :)

Maraming salamat, Kuya, sa pag-aaruga at pagpasensya

sa bawat isa sa amin.

Sana po ay napasaya namin kayo sa iyong mahalagang araw.

It has been a great year for you and I hope

the One Above will continue to shower His blessings to you.

Thank you for the love and trust you have given me and my kapatids.

No pain and arguments could take away the love

that we have for you and KrumPinoy.

We will ALWAYS be here for you.

KRUMPINOY FOREVER. PAMILYA.

WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH, KUYA!

Again, happy happy birthday po! :)

Chairs With Scars

I miss this! :/

1st story: Vices (Japheth and Gayle)

2d story: Pre-marital Sex (Nadine and RJ)

3d story: Bully (Marian and Sha)

I cannot wait for the

DLSU's centennial celebration

to come. JUNE 16 come faster!!! :D

I will be dancing with my LSDC family once again. :)

Here's One For You, Playah!

I saw this in my old files and thought of YOU.

Tsk tsk.

Light and Heavy

1. Finding the answers to the questions is twice as hard

as it may seem.

So many things are going on this past few weeks

and I really don't know if I can handle this or not.

The thing right here is that I never wanted anything

complicated.

Things were fine before.

Everything was smooth-sailing and easy breezy,

but how come things are so difficult now?

I wish I can just ignore and forget about everything.

I will remain silent about everything

just to prevent everybody from getting hurt.

Just so you know,

it will be freaking painful.

2. RESPECT- one thing you forgot to keep in mind

when you confessed to me.

It is good that you stay true to yourself,

but please remember that we are NOT in the same page.

I do not feel the same nor look at you the same as you to me.

When I say, I don't want to, I AM FREAKIN' SERIOUS ABOUT IT.

3. Moving on and letting go are two different things.

Some people can easily move forward with their lives,

but deep down inside, they know they can never let go of that one person.

4. Seeking for answers, finding the truth,

and realizing you do NOT need some people in life

are three of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life.

But hey, a big lump was taken out of my chest.

Why torture and surround

yourself with insignificant things/people?

5. It is not hard to make decisions

when you know what your values are.

Makes sense, eh?