Word Vomit

"RAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRR."

Just when I thought things are falling in its place,

everything slipped down the dump.

Why do I feel so gloomy about everything?

Is it because I am ready to give my all and to take 

 all the risks/circumstances?

Or...

Is it because I am used to the attention given to me

and now, everything just disappeared in a snap?

I just want to climb up a mountain and

shout till I have no voice-

that's how desperately I want the bad feeling to go away. 

That's how exhausted I am to be in the same situation twice.

Don't I deserve to be loved and to be happy?

Am I not worth taking care of?

Is it too much to ask to just stay beside me and never let me go?

WORD VOMIT: TOO PAINFUL.