This Boy She Loves

All she ever wanted was to be happy and yet, 

some sort of unlucky charm is blocking the way- 

happiness does not want to share its magic.

This boy was one of the best people in her life. 

He confessed his admiration for her and 

she fell in love with him.

But...

He bruised her heart.

They have gone through all the drama-rama of life and

time have tested their friendship really well. 

She, at first, 

did not know what to do nor how to react on such things. 

She never wanted to stepped on people nor risk the friendship. 

The fact that she was NOT ready 

for any serious relationship gave them the anxious feeling and 

made them taste the bittersweet of crossing the line.

He promised to never let her down nor let her go.

 He rekindled the lost fire inside her and 

brought back the smile on her face

 through all the EFFORT and LOVE he had shown. 

PROMISES and SECURITY- 

those things that she tried to hold on to.

He went back to his hometown with 

a little bit of hope that things will work perfectly fine. 

It did, actually.

 He gave her the assurance that 

she was looking for and

 she trusted him more than he will ever know.

She went away to find what she really wanted and

 went back home with definite desires.

 Things did not go on how she perceived them to be. 

He is suffering from "mid-life" crisis and has changed his plans. 

She is NOT included in them anymore.

And now...

She is hurt and devastated with the things happening 

for she could not comprehend and believe 

that what she has been holding on to is gone. 

All she could ask is "Why now?" 

All she could ever do is ponder upon herself and 

understand the circumstances. 

She could never hate him for all his decisions; 

not even hate him for pushing her away. 

All she wants now is a lucid and concise explanation

 on how and why things happened and are happening-

that's the least he could do for her.

She knows she does not deserve any of these things. 

Everything that is happening is just too soon for her; 

too soon to feel the past again.

All she could ever do now is be hopeful and optimistic. 

Things will be better, aren't they? 

This is just one of those times where you learn and

 be grateful things happened for whatever reason it may be.

And yes, she will not deny it.

She loves this boy with ALL her heart.

She will just be THERE for him.

Always. All ways.