Step By Steph Recital- Flick: Move To Movies

And the day everyone has been

waiting for finally came...

It is a combination of heterogeneous feelings.

For some reason, I was feeling VERY anxious about the recital.

I guess it's because this year I handled the Hip-Hop Kids Class

instead of Jazz which is my forte.

I was not sure if I was ready or not,

but I risked it still.

I was carrying a big lump of pressure at my back.

I admit that I am a novice in Hip-Hop and

it took me a lot of help from dancer friends

to make a "lesson plan" for my class. :))

Surprisingly, it worked way more than I expected.

From 7 enrollees, it went up to 15.

Yes, I am very proud to say that the mere fact

that there were few when I started the class

and suddenly, a lot enrolled after their try-out

is because I shared to them

one of the things I learned from my inspirations in dancing-

LOVE what you are doing.

During the process,

I had a hard time.

I used my preschool teaching strategies to handle them.

I, together with my kiddies, tried to make the class as fun as we can.

Parents were eagle-eyed on their kiddies.

(This made me feel really anxious each and every time!)

My patience was tested again and again.

And after everything, I realized that the only thing

I can make this work is when I establish rapport with them.

I treat them as if they were my own.

And when I was able to do that,

they were able to love what they were doing.

Being with them twice a week for two months,

I must say, is not enough.

THEY were asking for more. :')

I wish I could extend the workshop. Hehe

I will miss our rehearsals, "cipher", and random conversations.

I will definitely going to miss them.

Can I just say that I am REALLY proud of them?

These kids are swaggers, house dancers, and hip-hop dancers.

Real talk. :)

On the 2d half of the recital

is where I performed contemporary dance.

This is by far, the most melodramatic

contemporary piece I have ever danced.

The piece was oozing with passion and love for dance.

People were so quiet the moment we started dancing on stage.

Tears wanted to roll down my cheeks during the performance.

Insane feeling and invigorating dance steps

raptured the eyes of the audience

and I am pretty sure,

they felt every bit of our emotion and story.

Thank you so much to Sir Peter for another opportunity.

Contemporary made me whole again.

It rekindled the once lost fire in me.

Here's the video of our piece:

This year is really incredible and memorable.

Congratulations to Mommy Steph for a successful summer workshop.

And kudos to all the students for a job well done! :)

I cannot wait for next year!

FOREVER ON THE DANCEFLOOR.

Credit for the photos:

Bry Go

Carla Quiogue

Ardo Avancena

One Last Push

One last push...

I can do this.

I am VERY tired physically and mentally.

And I cannot bear the emotional stress it is giving me.

I have enough already.

I don't want to do this anymore.

I really don't.

If only I can just turn my back on it..

If only I can just give up and just say "Fuck it!"

If only I didn't commit...

This is so dragging and making me sick.

I cannot wait for this to end.

Megara

As promised,

here are photos of me

in the Step by Steph's summer workshop photoshoot. :)

Megara of Hercules

Watch the recital on May 28, 2011 Saturday 7pm

at Tanghalang Pasigueno

(in front of Pasig City Market, Caruncho Avenue, Pasig City)

Here We Go Again

Free and Soulful

Contemporary dance never failed to make me cry

every time I dance it.

It just gives me the freedom and satisfaction that I have been

seeking for for the longest time.

I always go back to it and with arms open wide,

it embraces me- each and every time.

I just realized that with freedom, you can do your VERY best.

Without hesitations and fear of false criticism,

you are able to show people your story, your feelings, and yourself.

Contemporary dance may be full of technical dances and emotions

and yet, I do not feel pressured nor stressed. NOT AT ALL. :)

I'll post the video from the practice soon.

I just can't now since the recital is still on Saturday.

Watch Step by Steph's Dance Recital on May 28, 2011 6pm

at Tanghalang Pasigueno!

Until When

Until when are you going to lie and sneak out?

Why do you keep doing the same things for more than a year?

Are you really happy and contented with that person

OR

you just want an assurance because that person can

provide for your future?

Oh man.

I'll See You Soon

One of the most adorable and sweetest students

I have ever had. :3

I lalalalove this kiddo super much!

He's not a pain in the ass unlike the other children

I have handled.

Sad to say that he will stay here in the country no more.

He's moving to New York. :((

I really thought he will enroll this coming June... Hay.

Last time to see him yesterday...

Last time to kiss his chubby cheeks...

Last time to hug him really tight...

Oh gosh.

Bonjour

We had a "try-out" kid earlier

and my oh my,

he doesn't know how to speak English.

And so...

I have to learn the basic phrases/words of either

French or Italian languages. :))

Bilingual kiddo!

Awesome. :D

Speechless

Ugh

There is no need for you to

ignore me nor feel awkward around me.

This is really disappointing.

After everything said and done,

you are here,

trying to make feel like I am running after you.

FYI, I am NOT desperate for any romantic relationships.

I just want pure and sincere friendship- nothing else.

Just like what you told me, remember?

And I repeat,

I will NEVER force anyone to like me nor be friends with me.

PERIOD.

So think about it and stop treating me

as if I'm some girl who cannot get over you.

I am sorry but I am not interested to anyone right now.

If you don't want to be friends with me, fine.

I just wish you didn't say those things before.

Paasa mehn. :(

New Home

And so, it is official. :)

I found a new place to share

my knowledge, skills,

and passion for teaching little children.

My 2-week trial at Creative Play Corner just ended yesterday

and a day before my supposedly last day,

the directress told me I will handle either

the Teddy Bears or the Care Bears in the coming school year. ;)

Oh new bebes this coming June! Hihi

I really have to admit that I learned so many things from them-

art, strategies, and music.

I did not know I could be this flexible.

I thought I could only handle Toddlers,

but during my trial,

I was able to handle different age groups without any assistance.

I not only enjoyed teaching them,

but I also feel really good that everyday,

I learn something new from the children.

I also like the fact that CPC is a student-centered preschool.

They treat every child as if their own.

I am also surprised to see that most of the children

in CPC are fond of me.

Charisma much? :))

My relationship with my co-teachers are also

getting better and better everyday.

This made me realize that I really want to work in CPC.

Most of the teachers are graduates of my alma mater,

De La Salle University, and University of the Philippines.

I like the idea of always eating lunch with them.

It makes me feel more comfortable and at home.

I also felt very kilig when the directress

from the other branch told me this yesterday,

"How's your class? I heard you are doing very good."

And what makes me say that CPC is my new found home?

The preschool is located in a private and high-class village.

It is so peaceful and welcoming that

waking up SO early in the morning is not a problem for me.

I also like the environment of the preschool-

a lot of children's artworks hanged in each classroom,

colorful sliding doors painted by the teachers,

and useful educational materials ready to use.

I really must say that to get a hang of being a preschool teacher,

you have to immerse yourself and love what you are doing & the children.

I cannot wait for June to come! :D

Ilaw Ng Tahanan

Mommy, Mamita, Mama, Mum, Momma,

Inay, Nanay, Mudra o kahit ano pa ang itawag sa kanya,

siya parin ang nagbigay buhay sa bawat isa satin.

Maraming salamat sa 22 taong pag-aaruga at pagmamahal, Mama.

Sorry kung madalas ay napapaiyak at nasasaktan kita

pero alam kong hindi enough ang thank you at sorry

sa ilang beses mong pagtanggap sakin

sa tuwing sinusuway kita.

Hindi ko ma-compare sa kahit sinong ina

ang lahat ng sakripisyo na binigay at binibigay mo sa amin.

A mother's love is really unconditional.

Masaya ako na ikaw ang Mama ko.

I couldn't ask for anything more. :)

Happy Mother's Day!

I love you, Ma.

I miss you so much.

Polar Bears

I am starting to love these British accent babies so much.

I know I just started last Monday but

I feel really different whenever I am with them.

I feel so loved and carefree.

We would just laugh, paint, dance, sing, and talk

for the rest of the morning

and not a single moment that I feel bored. :)

Earlier, I handled them all by myself.

Every moment was priceless.

"If all the raindrops were lemon drops and gumdrops

Oh what a rain that would be.

Standing outside with my mouth open wide.

Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh.

If all the raindrops were lemon drops and gumdrops

Oh what a rain that would be. "

Burnt

I need a sweet escape.

Soon. :(

3:46am

I know it's still early.

I woke up earlier than the time

I have set in my alarm clock. :))

Too excited?

Nah.

It's my sleeping pattern. If I didn't sleep earlier.

I wouldn't be able to wake up at 5am.

Or...

I wouldn't be able to sleep because

usually, that's the time I go to bed. :))

Well actually, I am excited. :D

It's my first day at work again after

resting for 2 months. Teehee!

New babies.

New life.

New people.

Now, let's see how I roll this time. :3

Street Kingdom: Katy Perry Challenge

Oh gosh.

Goosebumps.