Still On A Hueniverse High

Contemporary dance: A dance genre that 

unconsciously squeezes out people's emotions
through battements, extensions, arm movements, and the like.

(Not that I am saying other genres don't. Haha!)

I should know for 

I have experienced them first hand MANY times.

HUENIVERSE: Dance all-encompassing in technicolor,

the 31st anniversary dance concert of

the La Salle Dance Company- Contemporary.

It was held at the Teresa Yuchengco Auditorium

in De La Salle University- Manila.

This concert helped me cope all the things life has thrown at me.

All the struggles during rehearsals...

All the after-training realizations...

All the warm hugs and pieces of advice...

All the emotions released..

And most importantly,

all the lessons I have shared with the LSDC-C family..

Thank you so much, Sir Peter,

 for giving me an opportunity once again

to share my skills and to be part of this grand

anniversary concert.

Thank you, Sir Danny of Powerdance, 

for pushing me forward when

mediocrity was killing my spirit and passion for dancing.

Thank you, current members and alumni members,

for helping me out and 

sharing the great possibilities the world could offer-

dance and family.

TEAMFAB,

I love each and every one of you.

Thank you for pulling me up 

when I was all over the floor weeping.

You understood every bit of my emotion 

even without a word coming out of my mouth.

It was so good to share the stage with some of you once again.

Let us all be fabulous together forever, yes? :)

Many thanks also to my Skittlez babies and biological family

for watching and supporting the concert. :)

And yes, 

I have found what I was looking for during the process.

This time I know it is for real.

No more hiding behind the shadows.

No more dark nights.

No more looking back.

The universe is so wonderful and beautiful 

for me to miss out those great things

and opportunities.

I choose to see colors and

 let the black & white/ gray area be gone.

I am without a doubt ready to fly away

and be free.

Here are some photos and videos during the concert:

"Sa Aking Nayon"

Choreographed by Peter Alcedo Jr.

Dancers: 

Reese Corpuz

 Larissa Nodalo

Heather Ortaleza

Jacqueline Del Pilar

Gayle Penaranda

"Pride"

from one of the 7 Deadly Sins suite

Choreographed by Peter Alcedo Jr.

https://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150323096303779

"Jazz Suite"

Choreographed by Danny Marshall

How To Deal

Memories.

Those things that kill me every day.

The way we stare at each other whenever I sleep over at your place..

Those small smiles that we exchange right before you kiss me..

The cuddles, tight hugs, and hugging from behind..

I know I should not be thinking about those things anymore.

I know I should not cut myself to the quick even more.

And I know I should not love you anymore.

I am truly sorry for not letting go.

I thought you love me too

because for the past year and 8 months,

that’s what you made me feel.

I was wrong because those things were just an act of confusion.

It all ended last Wednesday.

I have to put an end already.

I realized I’m drowning myself

in this vicious cycle and no matter what I do

or even if I set my best foot forward,

there’s no you and me anymore.

Not anymore.

I will not lie. Remember what I told you 2 weeks ago? I still do.

You have your way.

Please do not waste this chance of starting over with her,

without me in the picture.

She may not know our hidden life,

but I hope you show fidelity this time.

This time, I want myself to feel true happiness.

I am embracing all the pain & decisions already and I am letting go.

Over the Edge

Wag sana baliktarin lahat ng nangyari.

If I did not stop this, you will NEVER stop.

That is a fact and you agreed.

Ako na nag-give way.

So please, the least you can do is wag mo i-brush off at i-deny

lahat ng INUMPISAHAN at GINAWA mo

at palabasin na ako naghahabol.

Alam mo at alam ko ang totoo.

Sleeping With...

A pair of panda socks... =D

One of the things that helps me fall asleep at night.

Well of course, aside from my baby Bubwitie.

Weeping and praying.

Wishing and hoping.

Understanding and deciding.

Day and night...

Rain or shine...

EVERYTHING is still the same.