And Then I Realized

Not married.

No boyfriend.

Not even have a crush.

BUT...

I still have LOVE. :)

Mommy-Baby Day

Just spent the whole day with Mommy Steph

♥♥♥

Pho Hoa Experience

My dad, sis, and I decided to eat dinner

at Pho Hoa on a Sunday evening at

Robinson's Place- Ermita.

The restaurant is at the Midtown Wing

where high-end shops and restaurants

are located.

Knowing that the wing is high class and all that,

I assumed, which is something that I didn't do,

that people would behave decently.

We were happily eating our food when out of the blue

there's this one guy,

dressed so clean and nicely,

went into the resto and did something

really awful and funny.

He hurriedly went to the table behind ours and

grabbed the left overs, took the tip,

and went out of the resto.

No one saw it except us.

I couldn't believe my eyes what I just saw and felt really sad.

I mean, I laughed because it was really a sly move,

but I felt sad more because I just realized how difficult life really is now.

I just told my dad,

"Grabe naman yun. Ganun na ba talaga kahirap ang mundo?"

No one said anything after that.

On a good note,

I really enjoyed my food. :D :D :D *fatty mode*

I ate marinated prawns and grilled pork.

Two-thumbs up for the fried rice! OH GOSH. It was so delicious.

My dad said so too.

He had a beef stew noodles and it was really mouth-watering! =P~

After that, my sister and I bought

Krispy Kreme doughnuts and Art's Cream Gallery ice cream

for dessert.

Oh dear.

I am getting hungry while writing this. :))

What a way to spend my Sunday!

Thank you, Lord, for the good food. :)

Yeap!

So I got really bored while waiting for

Tetri, Carlo, and Tetay here at Coffee Bean Taft... :))

Uh-huh

“You don’t need to justify or explain your dreams.

They belong to you.”

- Paulo Coelho

Inspired

The best things in life are free.

Yayuuuuhhh! :)

Dancing has never felt this REALLY good.

Too good to be true. ;)

When one door closes, a lot of windows open...

God is really good.

Let the photos do the talking...

Chelo Aestrid featuring Stellar at Myx Music Awards

KrumPinoy and Stellar at America in 3D (Philippine Allstars concert)

All these opportunities are not possible if not without You.

Thank You. :">

Also, thank you to Big Pat and Mommy Lems for everything.

SATC

‎"After he left, I cried for a week,

and then I realised I do have faith.

Faith in myself,

faith that I would one day meet someone...

who would be sure that I was the one."

- Carrie Bradshaw

Umm

I am tired.

I just want to walk away and go to the other direction.

Will you care? Will you pull me back?

Sometimes, people have to realize that I am a human too.

I have a human brain and a human heart.

I get hurt and I make mistakes.

I am not a fortune-teller nor a mind-reader,

so please, do NOT expect me to know everything. :'(

It just freaking hurts to be deprived

from having the chance of explaining myself.

I have exceeded my limit already.

It has gone miles away and yet,

people have not realized that.

And please remember that there is a fine line between

"being concern" and "meddling with my life."

I know what I'm doing.

I know what road I am taking.

So please, as harsh as it may sound, fuck-off.

My decisions. MY LIFE.

Stop making me cry.

Black Swan

This is one of the greatest dance films ever created.

Discipline and perfection-

two words that best describe a life of a ballerina.

Nina Sayers (Natalie Portman) has been in the NYC ballet company

for years and the break she's been waiting for

is about to happen.

The artistic director, Thomas Leroy, of the ballet company,

decided to do a remake of the Swan Lake

and he was looking for a new prima ballerina.

Yes, Nina is the new Swan Queen;

however, she has a problem-

her pureness and naivete character in a dangerous role

as a black swan don't mesh well.

The role is, in fact, perfect for a colleague, Lily.

Nina tried to prove Thomas wrong.

To portray both the white and black swan flawlessly,

Nina discovered a part of her that

she never thought she was- reckless and dangerous.

"It’s about a girl who gets turned into a swan and

she needs love to break the spell,

but her prince falls for the wrong girl so she kills herself."

- Nina Sayers

The movie was able to give me chills down my spine.

This suspense-drama movie was able to portray

how both perfectionist and schizophrenic fight his/her own pet peeves.

My mind wouldn't really function well after watching the film because

some scenes were REALLY intense and heart-stopping.

The camera angles were also good, I must say.

My favorite scene was the part where she, psychologically,

turned into the black swan and gracefully executed the dance.

It was beyond perfection.

I also like the idea that it was able to change my mood

from time to time.

Natalie Portman did a great job in this movie!

And Mila Kunis, as always, is so hot. :)

Two-thumbs up! :D

God, U, I Dance

It was a last minute "yes" to the organizers,

but it was all worth it. :)

We also made the transitions 30minutes before the show

and I was so happy that we were able to pull it off

that really BUCK.

I really have to say,

ANG SARAP MAG-KRUMP.

It was an inspiring night for most of us because

the community, at least most of them,

was there.

They performed and showered love to the audience.

So nice to see different dance styles all together

in one show.

A big congratulations to PCU-JMA

and to all the performers!

Tulungan paangat!

One love.

As for me,

I was able to kill my round.

I know I did. :)

A big thorn was taken out of my chest after. *sigh*

Evan's 21st at Sofitel

Surpriseeeeeee!!! :)

Happy happy birthday, Evan!

Even if we are not complete (again!),

I hope you had a good time today.

We love you. ALWAYS.

This is really a sweet surprise lunch birthday

from her boyfriend, Kristian. :">

I am super kinikilig!

Feel REALLY bloated afterwards.

I had 4 plates all to myself. :|

Spirals has a lot of choices. I like it better here.

The dessert corner is overflowing of

pastry, candies, chocolates, ice cream and lotsa more! O_O

GAAAAAAAHHHH. =P~

Sinful

Oh gosh.

Why does it have to look so luscious and all that? O_O

I am starting to gain weight (which is good, btw!) and

my face is getting rounder and rounder,

but who the hell cares?

Oh food, why do you have to be so delicious??? :D:D:D

Rubbish

You killed me again today.

For the nth time,

you have slashed my heart to pieces.

Thanks a lot for making me feel like a piece of shit. :'(

I am so sorry if I can never meet your standards.

This is me.

What can I do?

I cannot and will never be like her.

I repeat. I WILL NEVER BE HER.

I tried my best to please and do everything you have said.

Why can't you accept the only thing that makes me very happy?

Why do you always blame that one thing?

Why do you want me to take away something that

you know I am good at?

That's the only thing that boosts my self-esteem,

please, don't take it away from me. :'(

I gave what you asked and still I am not good enough for you.

What do you want me to do? :( :( :(

You are not here so stop assuming about the things in my life.

Stop accusing me of things that I did not do.

I am NOT the little girl you used to know.

I may kid around a lot of times.

I may act like a child at home,

but have you noticed that I have grown already?

I bet you didn't because you were so busy picking on my mistakes.

All you can see is the negative side of me.

Aren't you wondering why I would rather spend my time with

other people than with you?

Today, you really hurt me so bad.

I will never ever forget those words that came out of your mouth.

I feel like an imbecile member of your world.

I wish you did not call earlier.

I wish you did not hurt me this bad.

I wish you would love me as much as you love her.

I wish, someday, you would be proud of me, too.

Skittlez Crew at Danz Dish 6

Thank you, LSDC-Street, for having us

as one of your guests in your concert! :)

In my opinion, this is, by far, the BEST piece ever made in Skittlez!

Powerhouse cast...

Skittlez members are the 100% choreographers...

I love this homegrown family! :)

Tagos

Dear readers,

for the last time,

let me write about this... :(

Why do I keep chasing pavements?

I'm having sleepless nights

and keep thinking & asking myself

where did I go wrong

or what went wrong?

I guess I should stop being insensitive.

The answer is right in front of my face.

I just refuse to believe it.

Gah. I need to stop running in circles.

MINDSET ON.

"Do NOT be too confident when someone tells you

that HE LIKES YOU.

The real question is: UNTIL WHEN?

Because like seasons,

PEOPLE CHANGE."

Dear Brain

Oh brain,

why do you have to be so active right before I go to bed?

Why do you have to torture me with

ideas, conclusions, and negative thoughts

every night?

Why??? :(

Please, let me sleep.

I Really Thought So

This is an alternative blog entry

since the last one I did is

way too blunt and words aren't filtered.

This will be written in general terms

as opposed to the previous one that

the characters are way too obvious and straightforward.

Sorry, readers, sometimes I just cannot control nor stop

my emotions.

It just rushes so quickly.

"Love is not a game that children play..."

One of the lines in the song Till I Met You...

Hmmm...

Is it really what the society do nowadays?

Play games and hurt each other?

Will it manifest their true feelings for one another?

With those questions asked,

I, for one, will not invest on love

since I know I will get hurt midway of the so-called "game."

I am playing it safe since I have worked

so hard to bring my old self back.

It took me more than a year to complete the missing parts of my life.

I cannot afford to break myself again.

Call me fragile, but hey, I just love myself now more than before.

I realized that being whole and ready is not enough

for you to gamble in the game.

You also have to be smart and quick with your actions.

Observation is also one of the key points in winning.

Yes, you are whole and ready, but

have you thought about your opponent's state of condition?

Do you think he would be able to fight back

if he's not whole and ready?

Do you think he would be able to give you a good fight?

Sad truth: NO.

You can never force anyone to gamble if they are incapable.

NEVER.

Learn it. Accept it.

Ugh.

There...

I was able to write down all my frustrations.

I just hate the mind-fucking situations

that are happening.

I do not understand and comprehend.

I refuse to.

I am VERY glad that I am not a part of any game.

Everyone deserves to be happy, don't they?