4:26am

They say that the sky is the limit,

but then come to think of it,

if you REALLY want something,

there shouldn't be any limit.

"Do What You Want"

- Forever 21 T-shirt design

2011 is the toughest year for me for

it has broken me into gazillion pieces and

it taught me how to hold on and stand up again.

Unexpected and hurtful things went my way and yet,

I came out strong.

And, I am glad that the storm has finally stopped. :)

A lot of people are amazed on how I managed to

still be selfless after everything.

Why?

Because there is this one person

who stood by my side through out the obstacles.

This one person whom I never expected

to exist right before my eyes.

Taking revenge and hurting people

are the last two things I would do.

This is according to that one person

who believed and still believes the good in me.

And now,

I could not comprehend and believe

that I am about to spend the remaining days of my 2011 with

that one person.

As I welcome the year 2012,

I know with or without this extraordinary feeling,

we will still be here for each other.

Always and all ways.

This is, by far, the best feeling EVER.

Everything is just so good and unbelievable.

A dose of a 2-year heartache

is just what I needed

to appreciate the beauty of life and people.

And for the win,

this is the best Christmas gift this year. :)

So..

To cut the excitement and lessen the bemusement,

this is my fairy tale.

A couple of months ago,

I was in a pool of deep shit when I finally stood up for myself
and ended a vicious cycle..

As sacrilegious as I was,

my last resort was to pray for the pain to go away.
I begged but never really prayed.

I have tried a lot of rituals and all those paraphernalia

just to make a wish and yet,

nothing ever worked.

Last month,

as I roll myself into the deep shit even more,

I have accepted my defeat and used my last resort.

I went to Baclaran Church with Karelle, bought a rosary,

and cried myself out.

Mixed emotions rushed over me.

After that day,

things have never felt so good-

of course, with the help of my co-teachers also.

I learned to appreciate my life again and

accepted that rejection is just a phase of maturity.

A week after,

a big surprise stumbled upon my door.

2 years of tight closeness as friends

and there you were,

confessed about how much you want to take care of me-

not as a "brother" nor a friend. :)

I gave you the chance and surprisingly,

you are VERY consistent and determined.

You may be islands away from me,

but you already know how thankful I am to have you-

not just as a friend but as a special someone, too.

You really are a blessing to me. :)

Thank you for all the effort and surprises.

*One of the surprises before he left.

You really want to make me fat, huh? :P

I can hardly wait for January to come and 

spend time with you again.

We need to go back to Baclaran Church and

give back what God has given us- love and joy.

Thank you so much for patiently waiting for me.

Take good care of my rosary, okay? :)

This may take quite some time,

but I know you will be there when I am ready.

When I lost hope,

you were THERE to remind me.

This is the start.